virtual coffee #1

Even though under the guise of anonymity, I've found quite a few blogs that I'm following. When I was just browsing through, I came across Amy's blog where she does this virtual coffee thing every Tuesday. Bloggers write posts as if they were meeting other bloggers for coffee. As I've been dying to share this stuff with someone (I've been writing, but no one seems to be reading :P) I thought I'd give this a try. :)

So Let's get started

Source: Senemscoffeehouse.com

Before we start chatting, I'd like to have a cappuccino to get me started. What about you??

I know I am a little late this week, but I just discovered Amy's blog and I completely loved the idea. Since anyone who reads this will be a first time reader, let me introduce myself. My (internet) name is Nicole Warner and I started this blog because... let's just say I wanted to vent and I couldn't do that on my other blog under my real name. So one day, when I was really upset and almost on the verge of cursing one of my closest friends - who didn't deserve to be called a best friend, if I may add - I started to write here.

My intention is not to attract readership, but just to make a few friends with whom I can share whatever's happening in my life and whatever I feel without having to sugar coat it, just because someone likes to hear it that way.

Amy, I must tell you, that your Virtual Coffee Tuesday thing, is probably the best thing that could have happened to me right now, because I need someone to listen to what I have to say. At the same time, I'd be glad to hear your stories and be a part of all of your lives.

As we are meeting for the first time today, let me give you a very brief background about myself - something that I haven't shared on this blog yet, starting with my nationality. I am an Indian, though I've used names that are far far away from Indian names. But I can't say my story completely neglecting the Indianness in my life. So I had to give this information away.

I am almost 24 and currently at crossroads as to what I want to do with my life. But I'm sure that one day I'll figure it out. I love reading books and as a result, writing is almost naturally the next thing that I can think of doing. I'm a dancer, in the sense that I love dancing and I dance pretty well. And I just realised that this is starting to become more of a bio-data than a coffee conversation.

So let's make this conversation worthwhile. I would love to share some gossip because there is soooo much I want to talk about, but you don't know the people in my life. And I don't want to overwhelm anyone by saying too many things in the first meeting. So I think I'm going to ease ya'll into it. A week or so ago, I created a page with a short description about all the people in my life who are worth talking about, and it's right here. I have had too many failed relationships, and I am not just talking about boyfriends - I mean in every walk of my life. There was a point where I felt that I was doing something wrong and I bent over backwards to accommodate others., but I still felt that I was being taken advantage of. So when I decided to cut the crap and open my mouth, people realised that I was no longer going to be available to take bullshit from them. A few of them changed, a few of them went away and I kicked a few out of my life.

I am complaining, but I'm not complaining. In retrospect, I'm glad things happened the way they did, although I wanted to run away at times, to fall into an endless sleep and never wake up at others; I'm glad that all these prayers were not answered. Because I realised that sometimes when you don't get what you want, you get what God wants FOR you, and that deal is way better than anything else that anyone could ask for. Trust me on this one.

So anyway, I'm heading over to read all your stories and get to know you all. It was nice meeting you. And once again Amy, what a lovely idea. I'm going to put in all my efforts to not miss even a single Tuesday.

P.S. I enjoy coffee like no other hot beverage. So just to make all of this even more real, once a week, I'm going to go to the coffee shop near my house even if it means I have to go there all by myself (because Kayla thinks she's too precious for me... more on that later) and try a new flavour.