I ranted last time about how miserable I was feeling. I am a little better now - in the sense that I am not feeling all that miserable, although a little bit of it is still there.
Remember when I started this blog, I talked about two friendships that were going had gone sour, but I wrote only about Katherine because I felt the other one was getting better? A few days ago, the other one also fell apart, and I still don't know if the reason that has been given to me is in fact the actual reason for whatever happened.
I'm not going to cry or fret about it because I know that it is a waste of my time and energy, and a mood-killer if I may add. That's the last thing I need now. But I was just wondering the other day if it is too much to ask for - having a friend who not just expects me to be understanding and supportive, but is understanding and supportive of me as well? I mean, that's exactly what friends do right? It isn't supposed to be one way!
This year, I've lost touch been disconnected from the lives of four people; completely and the year hasn't even ended yet. I was hurt in the beginning because there was a hole left in my life that was previously occupied by these people. And now that the hole is beginning to disappear, I can see that I am probably better off because I don't need such kind of hurt in my life. Without the hassles and having to worry about people who only seem to be out to get you, life becomes much simpler.
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